I'm so disappointed in myself.

I've only drawn one thing within the last time I was online here.

I think I'm going to create new ID and icon for myself just to get inspiration going I guess.

I recently moved into my own apartment and it's been tough. Jimi has been supporting me until I find a job but it's not going well at all. No one wants to hire me, and the people who give me a chance wont pay me what I need to survive on my own.

Zeke, (Diabetic kitty as we have affectionately nicknamed him,) has been doing well though. He squirms a lot on occasion but takes his shot ok. It's not like 'trauma - run and hide' he comes out when I call him and is like "wut o x o? got sumthin for me? ish that mine? ooo~ I rub mah face on it so is mien ^~^ *happy kitty* "

Friend drama is always going to be around I guess. I can't get people to decide on a free time to come and hang out for a girls night in. video games, movies, snacks, just a quiet night in. one of my friends hates Jimi so much that she refuses to even look at him or be in the same room. sure my upset rants of how he upsets me might have been pretty strong, but she's being completely one sided in the whole damn thing. I'm happy she has so much faith in me, but really she could be a little more open minded. I tend to stretch things... a lot. She should know that about me by now. I wish people would just talk to him and hang out with him for themselves and stop basing their opinions off of me. I love him. that should be enough to give him a chance to find out who he is in their own opinion.

I think I'm going to start a project to make a Music video. I'm listening to "human sacrifice Alice" and I can fit the darker side of myself and my 2 friends into it. It's the 1st artistic project I've ever really taken interest into as of late so I hope my friends don't misunderstand and think there is any hidden msg. behind it. there's really no msg. x A x just the image of out personalities at their worst. Sure its not faltering but it's not like I'm leaving myself out of the 'roast' I guess you can call it. you can copy paste this link to get an idea of what I will be doing :

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I don't think their is anything wrong with humility. It does the soul good I think, I really hope that this isn't taken wrong as things I create/think often are.

I really like the idea of this dark fairy tale so I'm sticking to it and I don't want anyone to talk me out of it!

o ^ o it will look so cool in a dark way! Trust me! if anything I will lose interest and forget about it if it doesn't turn out the way I like it.